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07/10/2012

SEIZURES

Some of you may remember my blog entry 6th-september-2012-we-had-a-somewhat-interesting-shopping-trip-in-morrisons/. Well my hubby has had 2 more days like this.
 
On 2nd October 2012 my husband was having his normal acupuncture session at Broomfield hospital. For some reason the Pain Clinic thought he would get some benefit from it. Well at his 1st session he almost passed out, which does sometimes happen apparently. Anyway we agreed to give it another go and the next 2 sessions went without a hitch thankfully, but his 3rd session did not go so well…

Within a few minutes of the needles being put into his neck I could see he was not feeling well. I asked if he was feeling faint and sick and he replied yes. I went to reception and found a familiar face, a nurse called Suzie; she had previously helped my husband when he nearly fainted a few weeks earlier. She got someone to find Ed the guy that puts the needles in my hubby.

By the time Ed and Suzie came into the room my hubby was feeling a lot worse. Ed took some of the needles out but this did not seem to help. He had to take all the needles out, but by this time hubby was worse and ended up collapsing to the floor. Usually I’m the one that has to steady him, but on this occasion Ed and Suzie managed to ease my hubby to the ground.

But this was not the worse thing to happen. While hubby was on the floor he started to go into what all the medical people were calling a seizure. Me, Ed and Suzie tried our best to make sure my hubby didn’t hurt himself, we also spoke to him calmly. After a few minutes of us doing this, can’t remember who, but someone got a medical team which included a doctor. I cleared the way for them while they worked on my hubby. Again my hubby had to be given oxygen, it always scares me seeing him having to have that done. The medical team also gave him an injection of something to calm him and even scarier they ended up giving him a glucose drip. They also checked his blood pressure and blood sugar levels. His blood pressure was very high and his blood sugar was very low. Which was weird, considering he’d had breakfast. I always make sure he’s eaten before we leave the house. I also carry a bag that has water and cereal bars in it, I even have a mini first aid kit.

While all this was going on my heart just felt like it was going to jump out of my chest. I also felt like just crying with frustration. While my hubby was having the seizure he looked like he was in pain and scared. I’ve spoken to him about this and he says it “does hurt a bit”; he’s very good at playing things down though.

Anyway, the medical team decided to send my hubby to A&E. By this time hubby’s seizure had stopped, but I thought it was a good idea as we were already in the building. Also because the seizure had lasted more than 5 minutes it was a good idea. They rolled him through the corridors on a bed with me and a nurse running along beside it. While in A&E hubby had his blood pressure taken again and the doctor gave him a very quick check over. His blood pressure had now gone back to normal, so once the whole drip had gone into his arm they were happy to release him. I know the hospital was probably busy, but I think they should have done more intensive checks on him – at least some blood tests – especially as this was the second time this had happened to him.














Hubby in A&E                                                                                                                          

So we went home and just tried to relax. Hubby was exhausted and I was too, mainly with mental exhaustion. I had hoped when this happened a month ago in Morrisons that it was a one off.

The next day (3rd October 2012) we had to get some shopping. Hubby was feeling like his normal wobbly self and said he was ok to go out. So we went to Morrisons. When we first got there hubby had bit of a panic attack while I was in the toilet. When I came out he was in the corner breathing heavily. As always I reassured him that he was safe and I wouldn’t let anyone hurt him. He seemed to calm down and all seemed to be going well. We had gotten everything off our shopping list and were now just browsing. Hubby loves cooking and likes to see what bargains we can get. Before he got ill he used to cook and bake a lot, now he just tries to teach and supervise me (in HIS kitchen!).

While we were walking around the shop, hubby’s legs had been very shaky and he’d been feeling a little lightheaded. While we were down the cooking ingredients aisle hubby stopped in his tracks and started to feel really dizzy and shaking. Unlike last time, loads of people asked if we were ok. At first I thought we would be so I told everyone we were fine. But then I could see that hubby was worse than he was letting on and was about to fall to the floor. Hubby kept saying “I’m ok, I’m fine” and I kept saying “No, you’re not. You’re going to go over any minute now”.Just at that point a nice older lady asked if I needed some help and this time I replied “Yes, can you get a first aid person”?

As she went off to get someone I felt hubby’s body start to collapse. I pushed our trolley to one side and did my best to slow his fall as he collapsed to the ground. As I was easing hubby down I shouted out “oh shit!” and when I landed on the floor I bashed my knees and legs.

My legs after having an argument with the floor in Morrisons.














I know I should have made sure I was safe, which I was, but I couldn’t stand there and just let my hubby collapse on the floor. I don’t know if I do it correctly but I get behind him and put my hands under his armpits and try to take some of his weight and ease him to the floor.I don’t know where I find the strength to be honest, but I somehow do.

Don’t know how it happened, but hubby managed to hit the floor in the recovery position! Very strange.

The security guy in Morrisons came over to me and asked what was going on. By this time hubby was having a seizure just like the day before and even though I’d seen this before, I was still shaking inside and terrified for my hubby. It wasn’t long until I saw a familiar face. It was James from the meat counter, who is a first aider. It was a relief for me to see someone I sort of knew, James was the guy who looked after us last time.

We made sure my hubby was safe while he was having the seizure and like last time James called for an ambulance. The seizure must have lasted at least 20 minutes and while waiting for the 1st response unit, I just kept talking to my hubby calmly. At one point my hubby started to have a panic attack while still having a seizure. He became terrified at the sight of the security guard’s boots and all the people around him. He kept grabbing hold of me and hiding his face in my lap and trying to hide behind me (while still lying on the floor).

This carried on for a while and then just stopped. My hubby started shouting and punching the floor and then had yet another seizure. This one didn’t last as long thank god, but he was also clawing at the floor tiles – I thought he was going to rip his nails out.

The 1st response guy had now finally arrived and when he asked me questions I nearly couldn’t answer because I was just so mentally exhausted, but I finally managed to give him the info he needed. Again hubby’s blood pressure was checked and was high and blood sugar low, but what was even stranger was how, when the 1st response guys did hubby’s blood sugar, the blood just shot out of his finger and was just like water. I can still remember seeing blood run down my hubby’s hand (the day before in the hospital they had to try twice because they couldn’t get any blood out!). Hubby had yet another short seizure and then just lay there staring at the ceiling, looking a bit out of it. We all just sat with him, the paramedic asking a few question until hubby was feeling a bit better. Then we all helped him to a sitting position, then to his feet and we hobbled over to the café for cup of coffee while the paramedic continued to observe hubby to ensure he was really ok.

Hubby was saying he felt fine, but I insisted that they still take him to the hospital. He eventually agreed and the paramedic called for some transport. I would not normally have insisted on this, but this was hubby’s second seizure in row.

We sat waiting in the café, drinking coffee and hot chocolate (free! Result). The paramedic said it would be quite a while because the A&E was really busy that day. Ross and the paramedic discussed if it was really worth going, apparently all they would do was the same tests the paramedic had done on site and observe hubby. So we ended up not going to hospital, but the paramedic said he would follow us all the way home to make sure we were ok, which was very nice of him.

I was so thankful to be going home, because I was again feeling exhausted and so was hubby.

At the moment we don’t know what is causing the seizures. Hubby has had an EGG, which we are going to get the results for on Monday when hubby sees his doctor. I will keep you all posted.

I would like to this opportunity to thank all the people on the Facebook groups, James and Richard (security gaurd) at Morrisons Witham, Suzie, Ed and the Medical Team at Broomfield Hospital who attended to my hubby.




11/09/2012

Changes

I love my husband very much and hate what is happening to him and how it is changing him as a person. I do worry that the person I fell for will disappear and I’m left with a person I don’t know.

For my husband these days there is never a good day. Instead there are a bit better days and extremely bad days - like the one I wrote about in my last blog entry! I just wish none of this was happening to him and we had a normal life.

Because of my husband’s illness we can’t really plan anything, we have to take each day as it comes. Like last Thursday, hubby said he was o.k. leaving the house, but he obviously was having an extremely bad day. Well morrisons wouldn’t have called an ambulance if he was "o.k".

So our lives have changed a lot since he got ill. I know it’s not his fault, but sometimes I just wish we could get back to the life we had a few years back, before any of this happened. Not only is it changing how we live it is changing who I am as well. In some respect it’s making me a stronger person and I’m finding out things about myself which I never knew before. Mine and my husbands relationship has changed as well, we’ve always been very close and we’re now even closer.

But there are some days I wish I had never met my husband and I wonder how different my life would be. It’s very frustrating and confusing feeling this way because I love my husband so much, he’s my best friend and I have grown so much as a person just by being with him. There are also some days when I just want to leave; because of the stress and the fact that I feel like the person I love is disappearing.

When I feel like this I remember that my husband can’t escape from what he’s going through and that he needs me. As hard as it is I need to be strong for him and not let his illness beat him.

Some useful links :-

08/09/2012

Thursday 6th September 2012, we had a somewhat interesting shopping trip in Morrisons!

Before we even left the house hubby said he felt a bit dizzy, my automatic reaction to this was to do any shopping another time. But hubby insisted that he would be o.k and felt the need to escape the house. I was not 100% convinced that he was o.k, but I knew I wouldn’t be able to convince him otherwise. He can be very strong willed sometimes.
So, we made our way to Morrisons.

He was still a little shaky when we arrived, but we manged to get some bits of fruit and then made our way to the fresh meat aisle. Hubby was not looking good and was feeling extremely dizzy. He was holding the trolley and suddenly fell to his knees. I managed to help him up and got him to sit down on one of the meat cabinets (which are cold!). It was either this or hubby collapse on the floor, which he nearly did before I manged to get him on the cabinet. I usally carry my handbag with me which has water in it, but on this day I forgot to bring it(!) – which was typical just when hubby needs it. A sit down and some water does sometimes help.

I could see my hubby was getting worse, but I couldn’t leave him because he was almost collapsing on the floor. I felt so useless and helpless and typically there were no staff down the aisle. Loads of people walked past doing the normal stare and huffing because they can’t get to the meat. Human beings can be so uncaring and just plain stupid. Eventually a little old lady came over to me and asked if I needed some assistance. I of course said yes and she went and got a guy from the butchers counter. He asked what was wrong and I tried my best to explain and then asked him to get my hubby some water. The last time I had seen hubby this bad was in the doctor’s surgery about a month ago when he collapsed in her office!

Anyway, while waiting for the guy to get some water another member of staff came over to us. Hubby just kept saying to her “I’m fine”, which he clearly wasn’t because when we tried to get him into a chair he ended up on his knees. Luckily this lady was a first aider.

By this time I was trying to be calm and keep hubby calm, but my heart breaks everytime this happens to him. Even though he tells me that me just being there to catch him, talk to him or just hold his hand is more than enough and a great comfort, I still wish I could do more.

The worst was yet to come. We eventually got my husband into a chair, which he sat in for a few minutes before collapsing on to the floor! He felt so dizzy and just collapsed forwards out of the chair. The first aid lady quickly put him into the recovery postion and the meat guy got something soft for his head (a jacket from somewhere) and a duvet to wrap him in appeared from somewhere! (found out later they keep one in the office “just in case”!). The floor in the meat aisle at Morrisons is VERY cold.

By this time the meat aisle had been blocked off with a screen at one end and roll cages at the other. We had gathered quite a crowd and the other customers were staring and moaning that they couldn’t get to the chicken, etc. Well all I can say to you all that were trying to walk down the aisle and moaning because they couldn’t – WTF is up with you all? You have eyes and could see my hubby was on the floor in a state. At least you can go shopping without having to stop because of pain in your whole body. At least you don’t panic at the thought of leaving your house. You don’t have panic attacks while out shopping or lose control of your whole body and get so dizzy and faint that an ambulance has to be called. Just go away and leave people in peace.

Anyway ….. While my hubby was on the floor he started hyperventilating and his whole body started to shake and judder violently. Whenever this happens I try to calm him down and hold him, but it never feels like I’m doing enough for him. Especially as I can see he is in pain while this is going on. I really do wish this had never happened to him and I really don’t wish it on anybody else. For me watching it’s scary, heartbreaking and so frustrating (because I do feel I can’t help), but must be so much more so for the person it’s happening to. Even though I can see my hubby’s pain, at least I can’t feel it. I really don’t know how he manages to keep going.

The Ambulance came very quickly (within 10 minutes!). It was both an ambulance and the first response guy. These 3 guys did such a amazing job. They had to give my hubby oxgen and checked his vital stats. Blood sugar, blood pressure, hooked up an ECG and heart rate monitor and checked his temperature. By now I was so scared for my husband and terrified I was going lose him. The first aid lady ended up doing me a nice sweet cup of tea because she could see I was going into shock and I could actaully feel myself going into shock. While she was getting that for me I was still sitting on the floor with my hubby just either stroking his head or arm or leg. They had him laying on his back while they worked on him. He started convulsing and arching his back and neck, his arms went really rigid and the guys had to hold him down to stop him hurting himself. I was trying to hold his head down so he didn’t hurt his neck and our eyes locked. He looked so terrified.

I always try my best to hide how scared I am from my hubby, but he recently told me he can always see the change in my eyes. Then it all just suddenly stopped apart from his usual customery leg twitch.

My cup of tea arrived and I was very thankful that the lady got it for me. It’s strange how a cup of tea can help in that situation.

Hubby eventually got the all clear from the ambulnce guys. All his stats had returned to normal. They did nearly take him to the hospital, but once they could see him walking (if you can call it that) under his own steam with just a little handholding from me, they were happy for him to go home. We had to sit with them in the ambulance for a bit while they did some paper work and hubby got a nice sweet cup of tea from the meat guy as well (he even brought it out to the ambulance). We had bit of a chat with the ambulance crew while hubby got settled and fully recovered. Then we thanked them for taking such care of my hubby and said goodbye .These guys really do an amazing job and put you at ease.
Of course by this time hubby was insisting on finishing the shopping. Well you can guess what my response was! A big fat “NO WAY”!!!

To the 2 members of staff in Morrisons Witham and old lady that helped us, thank you all so very much.

Here’s some useful advice from my hubby:-

The floor in the meat aisle at Morrisons is very cold.
I suggest nobody lays on it shaking and juddering for an hour, dizzy, in pain and hyperventilating! It’s not a good idea.
It annoys the other customers, who will crowd around you moaning that they can’t get to the chicken and they get pissed off when the staff put screens up, blocking the aisle while 2 ambulance crews work on you.

SO DON’T DO IT!
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At least he still has his sense of humour!

Some useful links :-
http://www.fibromyalgia-associationuk.org/
http://www.facebook.com/groups/UKFibromyalgia/
http://www.mind.org.uk/help/diagnoses_and_conditions/panic_attacks
http://www.arthritiscare.org.uk/Home
http://www.mind.org.uk/help/diagnoses_and_conditions/mental_illness

Here's a link to a poem by an MS suffer :-
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1uZcRppidrzK8Ryl9YvZJcA9LalpVbqK1_89-fdk07ns/edit?pli=1